Tonight is the big night. I finished DB last night.

So here is what I have to do differently so she can see changes after our dinner discussion.

1. Stop all contact with her
2. If she emails or contacts me ignore her
3. Stop assuming things from other people
4. Don't give up and be strong
5. GAL and make myself happy with out her

but how do you resist the urge to not kick the crap out of this OM? Its like I'm not trying to find out about him but friends just keep telling me what a loser he is and he is just a snake. How he is a charmer but really is the biggest player. UGGGGH! Its so hard to resist kicking this guys face in. My niece told me how he was and all she said was" well because she is so in love with him duh. Your going to believe her?" OMG Obviously this guy is going to say anything to get into your pants! Ok stay cool and calm. I need to breath. I need to breath.

On another note I have almost reached my goal of weight loss since Feb. I was at 172 and now I'm down to 142. Woo hoo! 2 more lbs and then I'm at my goal! I actually did it for her and myself. I tried on some old jeans I haven't worn for years and there even kind of loose! I lost my double chin haha.

Now something different that she may she changes I don't know if this is a good idea but hey I'm suppose to see her as a friend now right? I hate rap music. Not all of it I like the oldschool stuff more. Rap to me if you really listen to it is like country music. They talk about there money, there women, and there dog's. I'm more of a oldschool 80's and 90's rock, Trance, and Hmong music. I'm thinking of opening up to her likes and getting some Lil Wayne tickets on September 1st. I was thinking about bringing it up during the dinner before we discuss our issues. Or should I do it after? I should I not do it at all?


Me:27
W:24
S:2
D:9 months
M:3 years
Together for 8 years
Bombed : 6/11/09
Moved out: 6/27/09
Found out about her affair 9/7/09
(she started her's at 6/25/09)
Begged n plead 7/25/09
started DB 8/17/09