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But she has already told me that she believes that I love her and care about her. She says too much damage was done. I just want her to know and keep it top of mind. It is so hard to do this. I fall asleep thinking about her and wake up thinking about her.

Honestly, I just can't find balance in my head with this.

I walk out so I should have no rights but I love her and want to save our marriage. Everything I feel or want to do is so confusing because one voice is saying fight because this is your last chance, fight like h#*%. The other voice is saying you don't deserve to even be in the room with her. And the other voice is saying be patient if you love her...don't hurt her any more.

It just breaks my heart...where was all of this 10 months ago or two years ago when I needed it? I've opened this door to all these emotions that I had been doing a great job of suppressing my entire life.