This woman was my individual counciler, had asked for W to come in to get her perspective. Don't think I'm going back.
But yeah, I'm pulling it together. As crappy as I may sound on this board... I think I'm less distracted at work now (though I'm probably looking at this message board too much), and I'm pulling it together at home. Well, last night I was uneven. But I think in my house, I've got a braver face on than W.
I got home tonight, and I could tell W was struggling. She said she didn't do any work today. Sounds like she slept and watched TV. I was laughing and in a good mood tonight, at one point I asked if she was OK, and she shook her had and said she's sad.
I said, I know what will cheer you up, I got my guitar, I played and she sang songs. We've done this from time to time and it makes her happy. When I suggested this, she said "We should have done this more..." Well, we had a good time.
W had plans to go out with a friend of hers - a mother of triplets in our neighborhood, who is seperated. Well, her H was going to watch their kids, but backed out, so I said, just bring them over here, I'll put in a movie, no big deal. Popped some popcorn.
So W set it up - she said her friend "things you're wonderful, which of course you are, which makes me feel like s#!t..."
So that was easy enough, watching movies. When W came home, she was tired and crabby - listening to her friend go on about her situation - apparently it's pretty bad. Well, another story. She said, I've got enought of my own problems, and all I want to do is sleep...
Well, I'm going to try this Ambien tonight. Hopefully will get some good rest.
