I am in serious need of some hand slapping or encouragement. Not sure which. I want to send a card to him so badly, just so he knows I'm still here for him. I know I'm not supposed to and I can't leave the house right now. NOt contacting him online is easy for me, I really have no desire to do so. I just want to send a card or a letter , anything , to let him know I'm here. To let him know I do love him and am willing to listen to his reason no matter how bad it is. I am feeling so desperate for SOME kind of .... sign that he knows I even exist. I just want to know why. Am I wrong to want to know? Don't I have a right to know? I hurt so bad right now. How can this be so easy for him? Its so hard on me.
