Hi Swim- I don't have any advice for you, but just wanted to offer a word of support. I am sorry that you have found yourself in this horrible situation. I can tell from your writing that you are a strong spirit- don't lose that in dealing with all this! I think it's fine for your to be angry and not calm- just channel that energy as best you can into divorce busting. Unfortunately, he isn't going to change- at least not any time soon- it's not fair, but you are going to have to be the one to change. The good thing is with all the DBing work you'll be doing, you'll be channeling all that anxiety into action. My thoughts are with you!