She did say last night, "I do enjoy spending time with you."
Funny, we've talked about the love languages in the past, and "acts of service" came out loud and clear. But I think "quality time" might be bigger. She's asked for time in the past.
The vacations and trips we've taken, she's planned them all. Not me. I was sick alot last winter, and we had to cancel some of these.
She feels "rejected"
So - she still enjoys spending time with me, I'll take advantage of that. Watching TV, family time, etc.
But I can't go to her in a state of need.
No more R talk. Jeez, it's hard to avoid, she brings it up, and after yesterday it's all fresh again.
I feel her eagerness to move on. But last time we talked about it, she was asking my input on how to do it. Is she going to push forward on her own? Yeah, sooner or later. Well I can't control it. But I'm not giving input either.
So right now, hold steady. Be strong. Put in positive energy. We're going to a baseball game tomorrow night, the family.
Had band practice last night, I guess that's something for me, but small comfort. Need to keep up the exercise. I know I've commented on PMA on others' threads, but it's hard. It's a force of will thing right now.
Gave got some Ambien from the doctor now, going to try it this weekend. Hopefully that will help me get some good sleep. Apparently this is a strange drug - can cause amnesia in some poeple - so she advised me to wait to the weekend to try it.
