Morning all. Had a moment before heading out and thought I would post/(journal?) a bit.
I read many parts of the Divorce busting book last night. So hard because half my marraige has been long-distance so some of it really doesn't seem to apply to me. The one thing that struck me is that you can't control another persons actions. That seems pretty obvious to me but maybe it's because of my situation I was already aware of that. The 180's make a lot of sense, I suppose the 180 I should be working on is not contacting him. Im pretty happy with my life and what I do other than that.
A mutual friend of ours I havent spoken with in a while contacted me, just to say "hi" . I asked her if she had heard anything. SHe hadn't but she is going to send an email to him and see if he responds. Not much I can do but keep living and hope he comes around.
I'm not shy exactly , but I have read some other ppls posts and my heart goes out to all of you. I don't know what I can add and tend not to offer advice unless asked for it. I will keep looking in, Makes me feel better knowing Im not the only one out here going thru this.
I dont know what my furture holds. Im not a seer. I know I must live my life as I have and prepare myself for the worst while hoping for the best.
I love my husband with all my heart. What he has done is ....unspeakable...but, I have to believe there was a reason that I can , maybe not understand, but in time forgive.
I didn't sleep well last night again. Cried this morning while having my tea, he usually is online or has called me so we could have that morning ritual together. 3 weeks. Seems like forever.....
