Oh forgot to mention my "secret weapon". I wore the scent I was wearing when I met him, and that I wore the first several months we started dating. I doubt that he'd notice or remember, but scent has a powerful effect on the brain so I hope it triggered fonder memories of me when our r was new and full of hope. I think I've successfully begun to process of being his friend. That's where this has to start if it's going to work. So why am I crying then.
