2x4's gladly taken. Lets just get the texting (which could equally be e-mail) into some order....
W - "Having such a good time with mainstay at the barrel. It is something that you should have done. Your loss."
W - "Wonder why your phone is off? Can not take the punch off the jolling life."
And my reply this morning.....
Me - "U have no idea what a hangover I had ;-) wish I'd left phone on. Would have gone 2 barrel like a shot. Hugs honey. May pluck up the courage to phone u a little later. Really happy u got on with main. And the ticket was 4 u. "M A" said she would call u Wednesday pm."
YES - I know I should NOT have used hugs/honey. BUT that was a knee-jerk upbeat response. Apologies.
W - "Atleast mainstay care enough about me. He bought me a nice meal. Unlike you and your psychologist. "
Then W's best friend out of the blue texts -
"Hi Mac how you doing. Coming to visit soon. You hang in there. I have a good feeling.. "
This is now two people who have noticed changes. Who are normally VERY tight lipped. I didn't even know that the W had a job from either of them. Which is why I sent another knee-jerk text (stop it!!!!) It was not right that she SAID I didn't care for her even though she knows I do.
Me - "Ah honey. U know exactly how very much I care. Don't believe me? Ask anyone including the pope:-) u r sounding great Malindi. So proud of u! X"
W - "I am not fine ken. Ask mainstay."
And my reaction to this was ...... nothing. No reply. Nothing.
The two people mentioned in the above exchange are both good friends to myself AND my W. And believe it when I tell you they are NOT taking sides. In fact expressed in the strongest terms that they were not PREPARED to takes sides. They are friends to both of us.
In my defense of the endearments - I am not prepared to be a doormat to anyone especially my W. But I do have very wide shoulders. Being "cold" and "clinical" do have their merits. But I really really know my W. And forgive me if I show some affection at times. Nothing I see in the books DB/DR (which finally arrived) says be cold or clinical.
Another point is when my W mentioned my changes. These changes are actually NOT new. They are what was in me a while ago which became buried amidst the $h1t of the slippery slope. They are the things that have always been there. Nothing new about it. Just back where they belong. I understand that time will be needed to persuade my W that they are back and permanent. Time is something I have.
Dawn - I promise - mystery, thoughtfulness, restraint, patience, kindness and every other positive attribute I can gather.
Sorry if some of this sounds like a rant. It's truly not.
I see so many positives in this exchange.
1. She instigated (for the first time) an exchange. 2. She actually told me where she was. 3. I know she was speaking to someone she respects very highly. 4. Best friend say SHE feels good about things. 5. She does get to know what I'm doing. 6. And has feelings about those things. 7. She seems to be digging herself out of the mire.
And what do you mean "slang"
Hugs to you Dawn - loads and loads and LOADS of hugs.
And you other ladies get stacks of them as well. You KNOW who you are
