Stepping out and Stepping UP!

[cagzmom]

I recieved my annual call (which does happen more then once a year) BUT this is the SAME call SAME time of year for the past 3 years...almost to the date!! (i have sent the text to my email and have emails from 2 1/2 years ago...did it to protect myself)

He called yesterday -- low/sad depressed. Talks of suicide again. Statements that he is thinking about how etc. Talked of putting himself in the hospital (which is a lie) I again told him that he has a credit balance with the counselor.. (my little lie) see he has no excuses anymore HE DOESNT WANT HELP!!!

.... AND THEN he brought up money. BUT OF COURSE. It is always about the money. What is sad for him is that I do think he is depressed (FOR REAL) I do know that he is struggling with stuff that is deeper and darker then just the MLC monster... it is real. BUT ..

What he does is lie. He was crying boo hoo.. die die.. and then throws in the amount of money that he says he doesn't have but I know he does. No not lots hidden, but I know the truth. He tries to use the tears..

He is out of control right now.

He was served papers by the sheriff for court on the 28th of September (with me) which he could have avoided by contacting the NC child support people when they called him.

He has lost a deep strong bond with my son (they were best friends)

He lost the bimbo (to a point..)

The girlfriend that he had d12 meet 2 weeks ago is now gone and out of the picture (how does he explain that one to d12?)

Child support is garnished from his wages.

His father had hip replacement surgery that did not go well - he (xh) has chosen NOT to call father-in-law...WHY? I DONT KNOW!!

******AND STILL it is not bottom*********************

I feel like that should be my signature line.