Ups and Downs

[Energizer Bunny]

Another day and more of the same.

I'm just going with the flow for now. *Patience* --- *Faith* I have been told. (I said these sound like stripper names)

More awkwardness at home. More superficial conversation. More clearly uncomfortable. More she'll go for a walk in the neighborhood, then I'll go for a walk. She'll go downstairs when I go upstairs and vice versa.

Nothing bad, but nothing good. Just limbo. Little small talk.

Still seems strange...the talk about the flowers next year, her talking to my sister about Christmas this year. It feels like if we're going to be together then put your ring on and let's try to work on things together. I realize it's not that easy, but part of me wonders why not. If you're in, be in. I'm not temperature taking any more though, so I'm not asking if she's in. ...like I said...taking it slower this time.

Anyway, it's Friday. Maybe it's my turn to stay out tonight