Newcomer, want to keep my hope alive!

[iwantittowork]

Last night I stayed late to play kickball with my coworkers of all things. Was fun, but darn am I sore today, after all that working out, still not in shape.. I was completely exhausted when I got home and a bit hurting too, so was not prepared for the below but hope I did well enough.

I did talk to the author of "Surviving her mid life crisis" who confirmed all the things we talk about here, and that I am on the right path for me, and if W notices she may come back, but not to count my hopes on that.

However, I got home late, and as I was putting my stuff away W started talking about how our dog now has Hip displashia. Not good, she's only 4 years old, and it's really hurting, she had lime disease, so we had thought it was that, but x-rays confirmed it's hip problem, and won't be going away.

She burst into tears while telling me, and started wondering where she was going to move to that she could take care of the dog, saying she won't be able to get a condo, etc.

During this, I am thinking, hey, how about we stay here, and work on our M! But I don't say anything, and just listen to her, and tell her I understand that she is really upset, and we will do the best to make the dog confortable, and guide our d8 through this as well.

I asked if she wanted hug, and she initially said no I don't need one, but I could tell she was hurting and could use one, so she eventually got up and I embraced her for a few minutes, just holding her. It wasn't for me, I just wanted to let her let out her emotions for a bit.

I eventually told her I was proud of her, and she asked For What? And I told her for being such a strong women, and I meant it, not just about the dog, but in general. She completely broke down sobbing, and said she was not a strong women, and the last thing I told her was you are a strong women, just because your crying right now does not mean you are not a strong women. And I just held her while standing up until the wave of crying past.

Our d8 was sleeping our master bed as well, where I sleep, so I offered to my W, why don't you sleep in the big bed tonight, so you can be with d8.

She declined, saying "No, you have to work tomorrow, and you need to sleep"

I offered again, but she declined again, so I went to bed.

Nothing big here, although her crying on my shoulder brought back some my emotions on our M, I can't know how she felt about it, but hope it helped..