Originally Posted By: verydepressed
I have always related better to males, and often felt like I was the male in my marriage (I know that sounds odd).


Actually, it does not. And reading this just reminded me that my wife's hysterectomy also removed a set of undecended male sex organs that were never reabsorbed into her body.

If you think, as I do, that hormones can have a very large effect on mood I mention my first wife in contrast to my second because both seem to have a lot to deal with with respect to hormones and I end up receiving the brunt of it.

As for loving misery...no, I don't think so. That things have gone on for this time is a testament more to the fact that I just accepted things as being the way the way the are. The question is: is this all there is?

From now until I draw my last breath, is this all there is for me? Or do I just let go?

If I'm in a place where I know what I know, I'm not inclined to give up so easily and admit I'm wrong simply to admit I'm wrong (whether I am or not). But I also can be beat down and like a beat down dog, of that's all I get, it's tough to see another possibility or know something else is available.

As time goes on and I live with this situation occupying my mind more and more of the time, I am thinking I made two very big mistakes.


Last sex: 04/06/1997
Last attempt: 11/11/1997
W Issues "No Means No" Declaration: 11/11/1997
W chooses to terminate sex 05/1998
I gained 60, then lost 85 pounds.
Start running again (marathons)