Trapt, you are exactly right, one of the things I have learned on here is as long as there is an OP, spouses or XS are unlikely to attempt a return. I guess it goes back to the big fat WHATIF. I really don't know, but that is what it appears like to me. Best advice I can give you is to continue to move forward and down let it get you down. Work on making yourself better and take care of your kids.