New to this Community seeking advice

[JR09]

Carlos,

I hope I'll be fine. In the long run, being fine is only up to one person: me. So I can't blame it on anybody else if I'm not feeling good...Thanks for the advice about talking with my W.

I do call her each week to say Hi. She really doesn't say much but that's OK. I ask her about the boys, her parents, her health, her school classes. Occasionally she asks about me, my parents. So there seems to be really not much for me to listen to, so I end up doing most of the talking. Maybe she really listens. No idea.

Here is how my day was today: I got the news about the affidavit through a website. That threw me off. I still had to go to work and put on my gameface. I work as a staff officer in te Army. No time to mop around and show emotion. Got to soldier on. Then I finally end my long day, climb in the car and fight back the tears. I come to an empty home and sit there doing nothing looking at my family pictures, fantasizing that my W will soon knock on the door with the kids after parking her van in the driveway. Not much GALing during the week because I am so tired from work. I hate it.

Anyway, life must go on. I thank you for the motivation and the reasurance.

JR