Hi Eskimo (or do you prefer Nell, let me know)

I wanted to reply to you last night but H is very curious about what I am doing on the computer these days and tries to get a look so I ended up just shutting it all down.

I had a look at the site and have found a couple of groups I might be interested in, but will wait till I have moved house and settled down a bit.

Glad you are keeping yourself busy with things, it is a good feeling when you fix up things that they usually do, kind of empowering in a way. I hope your mammogram was all okay, they are not the most pleasant things to go through.

Good for you getting the boots, we all deserve a treat now and again and there is nothing wrong in that, I myself did a bit of retail therapy last week and bought some shoes.

You are right about the pattern of good and bad days, today will be my bad day as H has gone off for the weekend to do all the moronic drunken things he feels he has to do, so I will try to keep busy, getting the car serviced today, something he always organised and did for me, now I have to do it.

For me the DBing is in its very early stages so not really seeing results yet, my 180's have been to stop initiating conversation, he has to talk first, I no longer call, text or email unless he makes first contact and I have to answer. I no longer ask him what time he will be home or who is going with wherever. I go to dinner with friends without waiting for him, if he wants to join he has to find me for a change.

Until I have a house to go to I am very unsettled and not really in a great frame of mind, once that is sorted I will be able to then really work on myself and happiness.

Will check in again a bit later and see how you are going. Should hear about the house today if I have been approved to rent it.

Have a good day Eskimo

Oz



Trying to keep hope alive