Good luck in your interview. You certainly could use some good news.
I've read this whole thing and I should just shut up and move on, but this is like watching a train wreck. I just can't seem to look away. So here it goes and I am not doing this to be a jerk. If I ever behave as you are I hope that someone will come along and shake the hell out of me until they get my attention. So this is my attempt to really reach you.
Let's look rationally at your situation. Your wife is sleeping with other men and finds all interaction with you as disgusting. She loathes you. She has no respect for her marriage or for you as her husband (or as a person really). She is going to divorce you and probably try to ruin you financially. Why? Because she can and you do things like that to people you despise. And you will probably help her do it just so you can be in her space a little while longer. And all the while you will be maintaining magical thinking that if you just say or do the right things she will come running back into your arms and reconcile. That might be the way it works on Bravo, but it isn’t likely to happen here in real life.
You know I do feel for you. It can't be easy living in your headspace.
I'm a man . . . But I can change . . . If I have to . . . I guess . . .
