I met with my IC today. She seems more impressed at how I've been lately. I had a dark period a few weeks ago that I worked through, and now focusing on GAL and my kids, I've been able to get things moving forward again.

I appreciate the words of encouragement, and the vote of confidence. It has been easier having my boys back to focus on staying busy and working.

I can't honestly say I want my M at the moment either... I think I'm moving beyond that at this point. For real, and not just saying it. I've wanted to move forward for a while, but the selfishness and pain caused by W is causing me to give up on her.

At the very least I have a healthy detachment where I'm not available if she just said "I want to come back." right now.

I think that is a good place to be emotionally as well as logically.

"You can't reason someone out of a position they didn't reason themselves into."