WAS seeing reality?

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I have not confronted about the EA but I want to. Her journal was still left out in our room on tuesday. but this time it was on top of the book pile and there was atleast another 10 pages written about her missing him when he leaves for Italy and how she wants him to leave his wife for her.
Last night I was there and she got on me about giving D2 a TINY piece of gum. She said it not good for her. But divorce is right? I think she was in a mood because she was with D2 for a whole 4 hours before I got there. She is used to me having the kids and being over at the house until their bedtime. Our final court date is for SEP. 9th and I am affraid that that will be it for us. I some states divorces take 2 years to be final and this has only been 5 months. I felt I have tried all that I could as time and money allows(Iam about broke now) I have had 4 DB coach sessions since June. I cant afford anymore sessions. The last one Chuck told me I was on the right path and that I should drop the rope. The problem is that is what my wife wants- my acceptance of this divorce. At mediation I will have a hard time leaving the other man out of it.