Alex -
No, she never agreed to having S2 stay with us that night - instead she got angrier and more combative. Yesterday she was absolutely impossible - simply because I had asked if she would mind if I take S2 to a kids concert here in Pasadena. She went out of her way to make an argument out of the request - and when I finally jut told her that I would take S2 to the concert and she could pick him up from me there - she threatened to call the police and file a report. I, in turn, let her know that I would share our entire email exchange with the police, so they could see that she was planning on filling a false report (and she quickly dropped the threat). While I prefer not to have much communication with her at all - I have decided not to let her false accusations and lies sit any more - since she has a habit of rewriting history in her emails - and I believe she's doing so in order to create a false impression of me that she might later use as some sort of evidence. I don't trust her at all.

I spoke with her sister yesterday - her sister is very much disgusted with B and their parents - and her sister told me that a couple months ago B had told her that she had read in a book that children don't build bonds with their fathers until they are 4-5 years old - and she tried to convince her sister that S2 doesn't need me at all. Her sister disagreed with her - B hung up on her - and that was that...

Rob -
Yes, his words were a excellent advice - and I'm waking every morning and reminding me of how important it is to get up and step into the present.

It is good to have some work for now - wish it would pick up more - and I'm staying optimistic that it will. August is almost always bad. I'm still hoping to go back into teaching - though the recession really hit schools in CA this past year - and there just wasn't much out there for newcomers - since so many experienced teachers were let go.

I've been doing more simple exercises at home - stuff that doesn't affect my knee - so lots of push ups and sit ups and dips, etc.

I need to get into more of a routine in general, I think.

-Carlos.


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"We consent to live like sheep." W.H. Auden

On my own
Separation #4