Magnificent

[mishka422]

Truly, I can't imagine a life where I like myself. I never in my entire life have liked me so I don't expect anyone else to either. The more I think about it, I think that is why I jumped at the chance to get married and have children (Marc was my only blessing in this life and I'm grateful every day for him even though his father is useless). I had dated a little in high school but Gabe was the only long term (more than 6 months) R I ever had and the thought that I would never have another chance had to have been why I jumped in with both feet even though there were plenty of red flags that I ignored.

The C knows my family background and she sees that my upbringing was not really an issue. I was very supported by my parents and loved incredibly. I can say without a shadow of a doubt that my parents were two of the most loving, wonderful parents anyone could have ever had. Thankfully, that is not an issue.

All of this is within myself and I know that.
I really have no idea where it comes from or why it feels so deeply rooted. It just makes no sense but I never have been able to shake it.

Heck! My knees are killing me! Working 3 nights straight with a 4th tonight is killing them. It doesn't help that I spend the last 2 hours of that time climbing step ladders and crawling on the floor straightening shelves. Last night I nearly had frostbite on my fingers from working on the frozen section. The gloves had gone missing.

Y'all have a blessed day!!!