The MC session for tonight has been rescheduled to Monday. I'm bummed about it but not much I can do- H's gout flared up yesterday while we were moving S18 into his college dorm and he can hardly walk.
H seems to be getting used to the idea of no sex for a while. He's still wearing the shorts to bed and stopped asking for it. I'm glad not to have that pressure but I feel a little guilty about it. I don't like making anyone unhappy, but I need the break. I need to see what our relationship looks like without the sex, as in do we have a connection without it? I don't think so. H is still checking the swingers boards- he just can't let it go, I guess. And I don't think I even care, I'm so detached from him. This isn't looking good.
