The truth is, it is much easier this time. He has been away for almost 2 years and although last year he has been sleeping in my bed on and off, there was never any connection... Maybe a few moments when he was on "no speaking terms" with her.
Whatever. I cant get stuck to this. I cant let anymore of my time go wasted because 1 man was an insensitive heartless bastard (and a jerk).
It's all clear now. Everything is out in the open. I have no guilt, no remorse, no "what ifs" that tortured me for so long.
I am sad and sorry for my kids. But I did all I could to protect them and offer them a family as it should be. But, there was only so much I could do on my own.
So, I am turning the page and trying to handle my anger and sadness the best way I can. And I will wait. K
