I awoke this morning still feeling a general sadness, but not as acute as yesterday. I thought about Sandi's post, and I think there is some validity to it. Already I am at a point where I don't want to be around her. Right now it's because it is too painful. When I am apart from her, she is her old loving self in my mind. When we are together, she is a person I'd rather not be with just then. Maybe I am scared of losing feelings for her. I do know that I am definately afraid that by detaching I am making it easier for her to leave me. She has said on several occasions that she doesn't want to hurt me, so there is a part of me that says if she doesn't see me hurt, then she is OK to go. Not a healthy way of looking at it, but there it is.
Me-40 W-41 Together-10 M-8 S-6 S-4 Bomb 5/08 Bomb 10/08 Thought things were better, was wrong. Still living together Wife doesn't think she will ever love me again.
