A Little Epiphany - (and a newbie delurking)

[Dia]

So H was out on his weekly movie night with friends. We chatted a bit before he left (the cat story) and I happily told him to have a good time. In his absence, I watched a movie, read part of Passionate Marriage and watched for shooting stars on the back deck with the kidlet.

I was feeling especially warm toward H when he got home - gratitude for letting me have my kitty. We started talking in the kitchen when his phone buzzed and he said he had to get to someone on the computer. Well, you know what I thought, right? I immediately thought it was OW despite the fact that it was pushing 1 am her time.

While he was on the computer, I made us a pot of tea. In the process, I had to walk past the door of the office and there was no furtive behavior whatsoever on his part - no hunched shoulders, no closing of windows, shielding the screen, etc. So I put my PMA back on and finished making the tea.

About the time the tea was done, he came back to the kitchen - barely 10 mins - and seemed both surprised and touched that I'd poured tea for both of us including making his how he liked it. He accepted his cup and clinked mugs with me. Then he said the phone/computer thing was a tech contact of his in England who was asking for details on an unusual problem that H needed the answer to by morning.

So then I stepped squarely out of my comfort zone and did the following:

Dia: I'd like to ask a favor, and you can say no if you want. I'd like to kiss you on the cheek.

He blinked in surprise (it even seemed like pleased surprise), then eagerly leaned forward to present his cheek. So I gave him a nice, soft, tender kiss.

I told him how nice it was of him to let me have my cat, then I told him the story of how I got Dean. In the middle of the story, he led me over to the couch so we could sit.

The story touched him, and we talked for a bit longer, discussed the fact that kidlet has an invitation to an amusement park 40 miles away - Eeek! - and then H decided it was time for bed.

I got my goodnight hug and his hand came up to cup the back of my head again. Then we each went to our respective sleeping places.

Here's the only strange part for me - his reaction to the kiss was so very positive that I wonder if he's waiting for me to initiate? And if that's the case, why is he still holding the line about me sleeping on the couch? Anybody?

And, total afterthought - Day-um. If I'da known it would be that easy to kiss his cheek, I'da asked for a real one!!