Well, I have terrible news. W told me tonight that she went to see a lawyer yesterday to ask questions. He is a big time ball breaker from what I have heard and I guess this is going to happen. We talked for over an hour about it and I never cried, begged, asked why, anything like that. Just asked what were the questions and what was his answers and she told me. She said that she told him that I was a good person and great dad and that we wanted to have joint custody and that I would get my fair share of all of our/her assets. I did ask her if she was 100% sure about this and she said she couldn't say 100% sure, but that she didn't see it working out. She said that she is numb to me and her family and has no emotions left for us. She doesn't want to hurt me and doesn't want to make this ugly or any harder than it needs to be. I was strong and just said ok, I guess I need to go get a lawyer too now. I asked her if she was filing soon and she said that she didn't know but she would keep me in the loop and not spring any surprises on me.
I was strong to her, but I don't think I will be able to sleep now tonight. This is a devastating blow she threw at me tonight and I am not sure how I will recover.
