I am sorry GG this is a hard place to be in......

You are also giving mixed messages, maybe you are just unaware of it.

You filed for a Divorce.

You want to reconcile.

You are having anxiety.

You have insomnia.

Do you think that perhaps you should just be still for right now?

Divorce is not a game, it is something that takes alot of thought and is not to be used to manipulate, it should be the absolute last thing to do.

Please put things on hold, get some councelling and sort yourself out before you do anything else.

There can be no testimony without a test.
I am praying to go through this test and come out the other end with a new and better marriage then before.