Oh I see. She took a vicodin. She was all loopy. I wandered into the other room, and she says, "I like you" and gave me a hug.
This situation makes little sense to me.
My husband acted bizarre when he took narcotics. He would be unbelievably crabby, then all, hey, you guys are awesome...that was on Darvoset. Vicodin made him almost crazy.
Maybe that's contributing to some of the moodiness. Not that you don't have enough problems...
Well, just bought tickets to take the family to a minor-league baseball game next Saturday. W said it would be fun. I guess kind of a 180 for me. Called her and told her I did it...
Funny, another thing she said to me yesterday was, "I've been taking these trips while you watch the kids, do you want a weekend off?" then proceeded to say she wanted to start swapping weekends. ?? Like - I'm going to find some place to disappear to, go sit in a hotel or something. I could see that once, maybe.
I thought I was feeling more detached tonight. Maybe I'm just tired, or just numb. Played games again tonight. W had a headache so I rubbed her head / neck. Well, then:
W talked to her mom on the phone - afterwards, said that the boys had asked to spend Labor Day with in-laws, and W will be out of town. I felt really annoyed - said, I thought we were going to do family stuff. And she says: Yes, but we're not functionaling like that right now...
Dammit. Well, of course, I can spend Labor Day with my boys, it's not a control issue. But I realize, yeah, they're going to spend time with their grandparents at some point. Might not be a bad time for me to rest and focus on myself. But kind of jarring to think of not being with my family. This sucks.
We're going to the baseball game this weekend, and the state fair the weekend after that. But these are family things, not H&W things.
Feel like I'm treading water, when I need to be swimming. Am I still just impatient?
W is coming to C session on Thursday. At least I think she is, she's still rearragning her schedule.
------------- Well, told W I'm not ready to spend Labort day w/o the kids. OK, no big deal. She had just slipped into her room without fanfare... Boys came up and said they couldn't sleep and "wanted comfort" - turns out they had goldfish and Gramma's that had died - 1 still alive - that's why they wanted to go there.
Stupid. Went and knocked on her door again to ask about the Thursday appointment. Probably seemed more intense than PMA. Heard a little annoyed sigh when I knocked. Stupid. Well, she'll be there.
sounds pressuring and a little clingy, if you're feeling insecure about all of this, that's fine but you don't need to project that insecurity on her so that she knows it.
Hearing that annoyed sound is the indication that you're laying it on a little thick, back off a bit.
Yes you're being impatient, what happened to getting a life?
W went to the movies last night with a friend, when she came home I was reading in my office - purposely not out in the family room waiting for her - and yeah, she came and sought me out to chat a little. This morning, I sat down next to her to put on my shoes, and she reached out and gently rubbed my back for a little while.
Good things - still trying to reconcile her behavior with the situation.
Starting to worry about the C session tomorrow - putting her in a position where she's going to have to declare her position, dig in. Well, I will hope for the best.
Called home before leaving work, saying I'm stopping by the store, do you want me to pick up anything...
W said she's down, that she misses me, started to cry a little - I just said, I'll be home soon.
So got home, had dinner - she said at some point, again, that I'm her best friend but she can't talk to me, can't interact with me... that she's depressed, can't get anything done, can't get out of bed in the morning. And she realizes it's her own doing -
I said, I'm right here... well, she moved on, we ate, now she's on the phone with a friend.
I don't understand.
Yes, I know people, be patient.
Maybe we'll talk later tonight after the kids go to bed, I don't know. If you've got 2x4s swing them now.
