All I did was to verbalize things to her during sex like "you want to f.ck someone else, you want to have him," or "I'm not worthy," etc... nothing physical just fantasy about her with others...
Guess what - be careful what you say or wish for! My stupidity. Why you ask? My therapist and I have a working theory. 20 years ago I did this to my first wife and have been racked with guilt for screwing around on her. Humans being what we are...I think I deliberately screwed myself to feel the pain I have my first wife like self castigating myself for leaving her 20 years ago.
Stupid? Yes - but I am correcting this in myself and never going back to that behavior. My hope and prayer is that there may still be a way for my wife and I, but I can only work on myself and do the Divorce Busting thing...you know?
