Ok Mind, Here is the question. This started for you in 12/07. Sounds like it hit you in Nov of '08 when you started DB'ing. What makes you stay? You are 9 months into the DB'ing part and close to two years living together as roommates. What makes you stay? Do you still see hope of a reconciliation? I do plan on DB'ing for a while. Just don't know if I could hang on that long if there aren't "signs" that our marriage may work again.
If I may.....
Bombed 9/07
It is understanding D...
Understanding that this isn't about me, and this is a journey for her.
That it is NOT up to me to end this thing.
It's knowing that I can look myself and my children in the eye one day and freakin know that I gave it my all.
Knowing that if there is ONE chance in a million, somebody has to be the ONE in that mess.....
But it also knowing that my life is moving forward for me right now, and if things come around again for her, then I will see where I am then.
No one is expecting anyone to stop living their lives...
It is about having that shot at the anniversary....
It is also looking into the eyes of my wife and knowing that there is something deep inside that cannot come out just yet.
Something that even she doesn't know yet brewing inside of her....
If she had Cancer, would I turn my back on her ?
Would you ?
That timeline thing is gonna do you in bro....
Cause if this is really MLC, and you are only giving yourself a year .....
Then you have already failed....
Faith comes from within....it also projects....
So to answer your question directly.....
Do I see signs of reconciliation?
Not necessarily, what I do see is a bright red flashing light that screams MLC....
