In Limbo

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Even though it is early in the process--that is what I keep hearing, so I will believe it...I have felt good about the changes in me. It actually feels good not to worry about what people think of me at work. I grew a goatee for the first time. Actually got alot of compliments, some even in front of the W. I have opened myself up to more friends(I sold out and joined facebook) reconnected with friends from high school. Become closer with my family and friends. Overall, I just have let me guard down. I am more engaged with the kids. So, this whole life changing event has had some positives. I just hope she does come to see that things can be different. If you have read the letter I posted from her, she has alot of healing inside to do. I read the threads of some people that have hung on for two years to make it work again. I just hope I have as well as my Wife has the strength to hang on until we hopefully come together again....I know 2 years is a short time in a 50 year marriage, but it sure seems like a lifetime right now...

thanks.