I'm moving over here from the newbies board. I'll just pick up where I left off ...
My W filed for D the first week of July. Our initial court date is set for tomorrow. It looks like we'll be exchanging all the necessary forms. Unless anything is contested, or there is some gigantic change of heart on Her part, it will all be official on Oct 9th or 10th. We've agreed on all the financial/stuff details. She's doing everything she can to get out as quick as possible. That part just frustrates me.
I've pretty much resigned myself to the fact that I can't stop the actual D. Any attempt on my part to do so is only going to come across as pursuit, or at the very least an attempt to hang on to the rope, so dropped it is. I think the part that frustrates me the most, is that there is/has been about zero communication from her about anything. How freaking hard is it to let me know what is going on? I've gone back and forth on being just absolutely livid about the whole thing to being almost hopeful. Stupid emotions.
I'm mostly mad that the little interaction I do have with her comes across like she decided to move on months ago then realized that she hadn't told me. So now I'm more of an afterthought while she lives the life she always wanted. I'm stuck trying to sort out something that happened months ago, for her anyway. Does that make sense to anyone?
I'm trying to sort out how I want to approach the whole paperwork thing tomorrow. Part of me is fighting to see why I should even care. She's already made up her mind that it is me that she doesn't want. I don't see any change in that. The other part of me thinks/hopes that there is some conflict buried beneath her "I've moved on" exterior. Maybe the short version is that she just gets to walk away clean. How do you do that? How do you just cut someone out of your life like that?
I'm all over the place today. I know this is disjointed but it needs to come out. Tomorrow will be here soon and I'd rather not have this rolling around in my head. Jump on in ... the water is warm.
