While I am not communicating with my wife, my mind won't stop trying to piece together weird stuff like, extravagant ways to prove my loyalty and commitment to getting through this and to making her stop hurting. Weird stuff like skydiving over her city and telling her to meet me at the drop point. (ha ha) I could say.
"I have always been afraid to take a leap like that but I did it, will you?"
I think about just trying to get myself a job near where she live to prove how insanely far I would go to be with her. But I have also thought that it isn't me that is having trouble with commitment in the first place, so I have nothing to prove.
