Another Waw

[Refuse to quit]

Well met with the C yesterday and feeling pretty good about things. Immediately went from there to exchange the kids. Got there early and went inside McD's and got an ice cream for me and some for the kids. Did not get anything for the W. Felt weird. First time I have ever done that. She got there with the kids and I greeted the kids and was excited to see them. Said Hi to the W that was it. Put the kids in the car and turned to leave. She started telling me about the kids so I stopped to listen and then I turned to leave. She said to me "Can I finish" I said "Oh I did not know you were still talking" went back and listened to something she had to say about putting a diaper on our S and then turned and left. She had 3 doors open on her car and I would have never done that in the past. I would have closed them for her and gotten her in her car. I simply turned and left. It felt kind of sad and refreshing at the same time. Our S has told me that mom asks him what we did. When dropping them off she seemed more sad than angry. But I kept the detachment going. I put the kids in the car, told her what they had eaten and said goodbye to the kids only and then turned and walked away. I could tell she was waiting for me to say something to her or at least look at her but I really want her to see or get a feeling of what this detachment feels like. I feel as though this is all part of it for me. No more compliments, nice gestures, etc. I hate doing this but feel like she has forced this upon herself. I tried everything else and it got me nowhere. This is definitely a struggle but I feel it is necessary.
RTQ