I have read DR twice now. I am trying so hard. There are days I want him back and some days I just want to throw in the towel and just give up. This is such a tough road to travel.
Today has been difficult already. I found an old letter he wrote to me where he was saying how much he loved me and that he loved me so much he believed we could overcome any obstacle we come across. In the letter he said he would give his own life up for me if that's what it took to prove his love and that he would love me this entire lifetime and even the years that followed.
I thought about mailing that letter to him. I don't know.
Then he called me yelling at me about something I told his mother. I have received a few weird text messages on my phone that appeared to come from the OW. She denies it, Of course! He believes her. I told his mom about the messages and when she spoke to him she told him that if that was the type of person he wanted to be with then she wanted nothing to do with her. He told his mom he wanted to bring her home to meet his family and she told him not to. She told him she doesn't want to meet the OW, and doesn't know if she'll ever want to meet her. So he blames his mother's feelings on me. He says I am the one who is turning his family against OW. So I just said, no, YOU are the one who ran off with another woman. YOU are the one who created this situation. Not me. He then told me that I didn't need to add to it by talking to his family about it. I told him that his family loves me, and they call ME to ask how I am doing...so I tell them...
I am so afraid he is pulling farther and farther away, and I don't know how to stop that! He also told his mom that the OW is now a part of his life and she needed to accept that.
