Ups and Downs

[Energizer Bunny]

I think that my detachment is becoming withdrawl. I know my goal is to create a happy family and develop a happy marriage, but my tendency lately is keep my distance. Maybe too much.

The W just called me at work. She said it was about paying bills, but it wasn't anything that she really needed me for. I think it was mostly to chit chat. This is her way of trying.

It's hard for me to chit chat any more though. We've gone through this before. It starts to feel like things are good for a week or so, then...BAMN! It's hard to waht to spend time with her and have superficial conversations when I've been through this so many times before.

I think that I have been too quick to jump back in with both feet previously. As part of my "doing something different" I'm going to have to go a lot slower this time. Let's see if she becomes the persuer.