Youre right, I do want to be happy....thats what we all want though.
Really I just want to be out of this whole MLC mess. I feel like my life is just in a stand still. Not moving forward, or backwards...its just here. It is what it is...I try not to think about that and take one day at a time, but how is that moving anywhere??
I have worked hard and waited along time for my H to "WAKE UP".
He is still the same though...even coming by yesterday to get the kids he hinted that he wanted some...well, you know. I looked at him like he was crazy! There was no 'wow u look nice today' or anything it was just sexual hints....thats when I said, "you know you could just say how nice i look today or wow, your looking good after loosing all that weight or you could have said the things "OTHER" guys are saying like wow I just couldnt keep my eyes off of you!!!"
HAHA...couldnt resist that one! lol....he didnt seem like it bothered him though. WHo cares???!!!
Im still not sure about pursuing other R yet....I really want to wait until I have closure on my marriage first. I really cant even begin to understand how to let go of my love for H and give it to someone else....that all confuses me. Im weird I guess...I dont see how I can be in another R like that right now. H was my only love....so how do you even begin to think about loving someone else like that and all....just things i think about alot.
Im having a better day...business is finally picking back up. I really hate it being soooo slow in the summers.
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
