WAW Using God

[pigskin]

Thanks, Dia. Strange, but recently she said she didn't feel God was speaking to her at all. So I guess she's in limbo now. At least she didn't say he was pushing her to the OM!

I see the conflict in her during her "down" days and I wonder if it is due to the OM pressuring her. He wanted her to move in with him and she told him "no" (he's still married but who knows for how long). She seems to have less sympathy for him and thinks he needs to handle his situation himself. But I think she is still in love with him; it doesn't help that he is laying on the "I care for you so much, I love you, etc." stuff pretty thick.

My wife's biggest concern is for the kids, understandably, and is really an asset for me. But the OM was a child of divorce and is recommending things for her to read about how kids can be OK with it (propaganda serving his purposes). Maybe he feels desperate and sees the conflict as well and is worried he's not going to win. Who knows. All part of the ride. I just want to get off and work on us in a dedicated way.

Eventually she will see that my changes ARE permanent. I just continually look for strength to hold out until that day.