Yea doodles, I'm so proud of you. It does feel really good letting go when you get there. You have grown. Isn't it funny that in the growing process you don't realize how much you've grown until you get there. It just sneaks up on you.
I really was comfortable stepping away, not to mention that I was so looking forward to moving on with that new guy that I actually still do think of from time to time. Don't know why but I still haven't shaken him off my mind as yet. Interesting. Btw, I was going to tell you, he actually texted me this week. But I didn't respond back. Only b/c he disappeared for several weeks just like that so I didnt want to respond just like that. I may reach out to him in a few days, don't know. But yes, when I was moving on H was like a little puppy dog, begging for me to take him back and now he's showing his true colors. That is the reason why I told him I want to take time dating each other anyway before he moves back in.
So, get this everyone... I think another reason I'm disgusted with H is becasue of somethign he told me last week. So while we were together I did the finances and H bills were paid well, credit was decent, etc. Since he left and has been support ow and her kids, his finances is terrible. Bills are unpaid, was racking up the credit cards, etc. All type of nonepayment notices were coming in. He refuses to open his mail. The other day I opened some of his letters only to see the cc has not been paid for three months. So last week, he was complaining about not having money and I asked him what has he been doing. His bills are not paid and he still has no money. He doesn't give me money and then he told me he hasn't even gotten to give his parents money as yet either for staying there. So then I asked how much he gives for his son only to find out that he pays the babysitter $140 per week and then gives ow about $150 per week extra for her to do whatever with it "she doesn't make much money" and then he buys son food and clothing too. Is this for real? The man is leaving me undone, himself and his parents and giving this girl about $1200-$1500 per month. I can't believe this. I truly believe a man provides for the ones he loves. I worked my tale off to get him settled in his career and this girl is the one benefiting. I am disgusted. A positive is that he said he knows he has to take care of it and that it can't go on and that she will have to get assistance from the govt. Grrrrr again I'm disgusted. Moving on from thiscrap is so so attractive. Let him go and have this girl that is about nothing bring him down to nothing - her level!!!
