((((((Stacy)))))) You know, I think I understand what you meant. I'm thinking about a case where an SO was away for a while, maybe for work, to see family, or even to go somewhere, or do something they were interested in, and I could not go for whatever reason. I don't want to feel that I "need" them so much that I couldn't function for a week or two, or even more. Wouldn't HAVE to talk on the phone for hours and hours, and wouldn't spend the whole time pining away and being miserable.
I don't see any evidence at all that W will freak out in the least when I set the D in motion. I don't think she wants to be married. I don't think she wants to be a wife, I'm not sure she ever did. And I wasn't a good enough housekeeper. Of course the is also the question of whether I would want her back. She'd have to do a lot more than say she wanted to come back. I don't think it is possible. But, again, I've learned to never say never... even after the D is done.
The kids are handling things great. Things are not perfect, they are growing boys, after all! But I think there is less tension in them since we've separated. I guess I could have on a pair of rose colored glasses, but I really don't think so.
Had an interesting dream last night.... There were some little kids playing basketball, they were younger than any of mine, I think. (And interestingly, other than shooting around a bit none of mine have ever played.) There were five, or maybe six, in uniform, and another not. He was a little guy, and I think maybe challenged in some way, but it was clear that he wanted to be playing. And the others weren't trying to exclude him. But somehow he'd gotten left off of the paperwork for the tournament they were playing in, or something. Then I was talking to a woman, I don't have any idea who she was, and she was so passionate about the whole situation. (It got confusing because I think it turned in to him, or another kid, being left off a football team, but whatever!) She knew he couldn't be a big contributer on the team, but he could play a little, give someone else a rest, and he would be thrilled. So, I gave her a hug, and I got a hug back.... and then I woke up! I think she might have been a combo of Stacy and MB, of course, since one is a redhead, and one is blond, and this woman was brunette, it makes perfect sense! But Stacy has the special needs thing going, and MB is the ultimate soccer mom, so.....
I don't know what the point was, or if there was a point.... it was a dream, after all!
