I agree, pigskin. I will give her the gift. I have come to accept that I won't get reactions from her like when I detailed her truck. Nothing then, either. It carries over tot he mood swings of hers. You are right, the happy mood swings get my hope up, I try not to let the downward swings affect me. The one thing that gets me nervous is how cold she is after her IC sessions. She won't talk about them, and I fear what they are talking about. But I don't dwell on it. It is what it is.
As you may know, my W and I did some counseling together after she did some solo, and I never came away from the sessions feeling better. Who knows what the counselor is saying; our guy seemed to take the position that he needed to help her "move on" which I hated. He changed his tune a bit later, but we stopped going after Retrouvaille.
WAW Using God Me-43 W-40 M-14 S-11 S-9 D-7 EABomb 5/09 Separated 12/09