Strange how I am fighting for my marriage with her and I don't like being with her.
I know how you feel and understand. I have this too. But, I'm sure you recognize you feel this way b/c she's hurting you and not providing what you need right now. No one said this would be easy. Just remember what hte first part of DB/DR said - for right now, we have to be the ones to carry the entire MR. Not fair, but it is a means to, potentially, a much better end.
We just have to be the stronger ones in the R. And, while we don't feel like we are the stronger ones, we ARE. It is much harder to stand and fight for what is right than just throw in the towel and quit.
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We are at least going to retro. I have such high hopes for the weekend. I hope I am not setting myself up, but I have read that even for people who do not remain together aftr it, it makes the pending separation and divorce somewhat easier.
NO EXPECTATIONS. I know that's hard, but you have to look at retro as a possible step in the right direction. It's ok to have hope, just realize you cannot place any expectations on your W or M. Go for YOU. Hey, at least she is going.
