A Little Epiphany - (and a newbie delurking)

[Dia]

Journalling...

7:23 PM. The workday is over, dinner is made and eaten and it's winding down time. When I'm busy, I'm fine. When I start to wind down/ quiet down grief hits and it just makes everything look more bleak.

I really miss cuddling with H. I miss the security of having him there in the bed even if he's sound asleep. I miss being snuggled on the couch and watching a movie or both reading under the same blanket.

There are still emails coming in from my new job, but it's after hours and for what I'm being paid, I need to start training them right now that unless it's an emergency, I am not available after hours. That's MY time.

In all the chaos, I ran out of my thyroid med so I have to call the doc tomorrow because I'm out of refills, too.

I'm cold; I'm sad; I want my warm jammies (which I didn't pack) and I want to be under the down comforter in the *^#$*@ big bed with my husband beside me. GRUMP!!

And yes, PMS has hit. I don't tend to get bit$^%, I get vulnerable and weepy instead. Sigh.

Ok, big girl panties will return momentarily.

Note to self: didn't eat til 3 pm today aside from coffee. Probably not the wisest of ideas.

Upside: Made shrimp scampi with sauteed veggies and pasta for supper. It was *really* good. H loved it and the veggies were from his garden. I gave him some sincere WoA over the garden and he glowed for a bit.

For Kettricken: I guess I'll have to settle for the delightfully Freudian metaphor of strolling through H's garden to pluck an obscenely large zucchini.