I need to vent here because I'm having a rough night and I just need to get it out of my head.

after 19 months, I'm tired of hurting. I'm tired of lousy surprises and having absolutely no control over my life. I'm tired of losing people for no good reason. I'm tired of being isolated. I'm tired of being perpetually broke in spite of working my fanny off. please indulge me this brief pity party. I promise it's temporary.

worked my 2nd job this evening. got home and eventually got online, and my friend popped up to IM. which was just what I needed. however, he had 5 minutes to chat before...going to the grocery store. geez. ummm, abandonment issues here, friend. no further donations needed.

words of wisdom, anyone?


M60
H52
D20
M14 yrs
OW-old gf from 1986
bomb-5/18/08
H filed for D-9/10/08
D final 4/24/09
xH remarried (not OW) 2012