Ya know, I've been thinking about this for a few days. I know your plate is so full, esp. with your grandfather on top of everything else, but I keep thinking that I'm seeing more withdrawal after being hurt than the detachment you're describing? Is that possible or am I reading it wrong?
I'm also wondering if you may have, maybe even unconsciously, closed off some of the avenues for your W to have comforted or supported you so that you wouldn't get (overtly) rejected in your time of need?
I really struggled with asking to sleep in the master bed that one night, and struggled even harder to get the do-over after I backed off. But finally I decided that I've got to be willing to ask for what I need and take the risk - because if I don't ask, then I don't get for sure. And if I do ask and he's willing to give it even a little - well that's information I need to have if I'm going to make sound, fact-based decisions about my sitch and my future.
Hope I'm not reading too much of my stuff onto yours!
The trouble with having an open mind is that people put things in it.
My sitch - Divorce Busted! http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=1804137#Post1804137