Less than 24 hours to D and now this!

[trytoohard]

9:20AM today -My A called today to tell me to be at the courthouse by 8:15 to finalize the D. I am ready for this, it has been 15 years in the making, almost 5 years of seperation and two divorce filings.

9:26AM today -My STBXH calls to tell me that his stress test yesterday was not good and his cardiologist suspects a blockage in the anterior portion of his heart and he is scheduled for a cardiac cath this Thursday at 6:30AM. STBXH starts crying when I asked him if he wanted me to take him for the procedure and tells me he is scared but he doesn't want things to be weird for me given the circumstances.

9:51AM -call A to tell him of this development and A tells me will will delay the prove up until my STBXH is medically stable and asked if H had completed his new will and medical power of attorney yet. I remineded A that his secretary has all of the info to complete it and I had not received it yet.

10:06 -A secretary call back to tell me that STBXH's new will lists him as single and leaves everything to the kids 50/50 so she cannot complete it until the D is final or STBXH changes the status. She asked me to pick up his power of attorney papers as I am his medical POA.

10:14 to current - sitting here in shock. I don't know how to feel other than I want to be there with and for H during this scary time and he wants me there. STBXH states that I am the one he wants there, not just because I am an RN but because he feels better knowing that I'm there. He also states he doesn't deserve to have me there after everthing he has done to me.