WAW - Very confused and devastated - pt 11

[confusedinpa]

I think most of us saw through her smokescreen, but you wanted to give her the benefit of the doubt which is admirable.

Thanks Stuck.

It had always meant alot to me how long you have been sticking by me. Even when I would "argue" with you to defend her thinking she would never do such a horrific act. I know your situation is difficult as well, but I pray that your's had not crossed into a physical affair that is so disgusting and torturous through her actions.

I will continue to try to live my life, with my boys. As I told her when I confronted her, I will take care of my family, and my 2 boys are all that's left of that family. I truly feel that the woman I had married had died and has been replaced by a horrible monstor.

Will the fog lift someday and reveal the woman I loved and created a beautiful family with? Only God knows that. I know I need to be the best CIPA I can be for what the future shall bring.

I do struggle to find hope in finding some inner peace.

The fact that complete strangers gather here to offer support for the wounded in this battle for marriage is a testamony to that there are still good people out there.

I know I can always come here as well as call my friends and family to recharge to heal. I know I can't allow this to be a fatal blow to my mind, heart and soul.

Thanks for everything and helping me stay strong.