Still Wondering How To Handle Things!!

[Sanderika]

Oh kissak.....

You have just received a wonderful boost for your self-esteem and outlook.

Right you are!!!!!

It feels absolutely wonderful when you hear and see that you are still attractive and desired. I assume he is thinking desire, afterall he said he couldn't stop thinking about you. I bet you hear from him again real soon....

I would be giddy with joy too!!!

WANT: You want to be happy. You want your marriage with H to reconcile. You want to reunite your family. You want to be free of this MLC turmoil and live days without burdens.

DESERVE: You deserve to be happy. You have worked hard to bring H back to the marriage, therefore you deserve the marriage. You deserve your family to be whole. You deseerve to live free from burdens and turmoil brought on by a MLC H.

You live like I do, with the hope that one day they will leave the MLC life and return. In the meantime there are choices to be made by us. How long do we settle for what we have now? How long do we wait for our Hs? What are we waiting for? What do we truly want? What is our destiny supposed to be?

You have mentioned before that H is very jealous of you and any possibility that you will meet someone new. Should you decide to explore....AND....IMO you deserve to at this point in time, it will be a real awakening for H. H has strung you along long enough. It will be the awakening for H, so very similar to the awakening H gave kissak back on 12/23/06!!!

Maybe H needs an actual threat to his messed up world.

I am beginning to believe that our Hs are delusional if they think we are going to wait forever. Should you decide to open a friendlier friendship with the "guy" make sure you are ready for something new. This one might have some promise to it, providing you also have interest.

Glad to see your Dad and H coming together for you on the leaky roof. I do hope they get it fixed by the weekend. They are talking about this storm up here too for early next week. Sounds like it might be powerful.

Take care and hugs to you,

Sanderika