breathe and relax, I know exactly where you're coming from, but if you don't let it go it will tear away at your sanity.
Even without finances, there are plenty of things to do that can make a lasting impression on your child. Simple things too, it took me a while too, but you just need to think outside the box.
Me 35/XW 33 S13 & S12 M: 10/17/98 OM & S: 07/08 D final 06/09/09 12/03/09 - 06/13/10 "Piercing" 06/13/10: Engaged to Re-marry 10/17/10 06/25/10: Expecting baby #3 2/14/11