OK, So I am having a really hard time today. I hate this roller coaster ride. I hear of my H spending weekends with OW and doing things with her that he never wanted to do when he was with me. Things he said he just wasn't interested in doing, like going to waterparks and such. I know he's doing them with her now because they are in the "new" phase and they will do whatever they have to to make each other happy. I am so upset today. I had a few good days where I was feeling like I would just move on and leave him in the past, and today I woke up missing him like crazy and just wanting him back. It is so difficult being 1000 miles apart from each other. Doesn't make the DB easy at all. I feel like I am "out of sight, out of mind". I just want him to come home.
